I was feeling stuck this morning. It is Day 6 of a 30 day challenge I am doing. I have challenged myself to wake up at 5am everyday and do a 2 hour morning ritual. It has been life changing and I absolutely love waking up this early to start my day with intention and what matters to me most. But today, I didn’t have the same enthusiasm. I meditated. I tried to say my affirmations, but my heart just wasn’t in it. I thought about visualizing my future goals, but when I closed my eyes, there was nothing.
I texted my morning accountability partner (we text each other when we wake to help us stay committed): “I’m having a hard time with my practice today. There’s an elephant in my heart. There’s something I need to move through.”
I knew exactly what I needed to move through, I just didn’t know how to move through it.
The next step in my morning practice was exercise, so I went on a walk.
And guess what? On that walk, I literally MOVED through it. I realized that the thing that was on my heart just needed more time and that I didn’t need to figure it out right this instant. I just need compassion for myself at exactly the place that I am. Relief and warmth flooded my body.
We are nearing the end of autumn, the season of release and coming upon winter, the season of death and reflection. Maybe you feel these energies in your life. Sometimes, we get so excited about the new beginnings ahead that we try to rush the release or even skip over it, but that is not the nature of life. Just as the leaves fall in autumn and the trees lay barren in winter, our spirits must release, reflect and rest in order to be able to bloom again.
Maybe you are facing a physical, spiritual, or emotional challenge in your life that has you feeling stuck. Maybe you want answers now. But maybe your answer is to surrender to the unknown. Be okay with not knowing. Better yet, rejoice in it! There is great beauty in the mystery of life. If we knew it all, there would be no excitement, suspense, or surprise, and what joyous emotions those are! We cannot have the light without the darkness. Know that this challenge is a gift and an incubator for your next greatest success. Allow yourself the time to release what you need. Maybe you are releasing a relationship, a career, or an identity that you held dear. Allow yourself time to grieve and come to acceptance of this release. Give yourself the space to reflect and understand why it is happening and how it is growing you as a person. Instead of rushing to the next “answer”, love yourself through this release, and you will find the peace and the beauty of the unknown.
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Happy SATURNday :)